Birthday in Oshkosh

The day began with a walking adventure around Oshkosh taking pictures and a bald eagle sighting. My parents sent me a case of wine and some pretty clothes my mom had hand dyed, which I opened with Jelka. I shared the wine with friends - Tracy, Lili, Scott and Jeff, and desserts, including a wonderful cake that Jelka made. Then I met up with Malika for our weekly Monday night dancing to jazz at Paper City Pub. I was provided with ample drinks all night and the Jazz Orgy crew played a song for moua!

14 Mile Post Birthday walk to Neenah

My dad and I always enjoyed hiking or running together, and every couple years we would do the 12 mile Oak Hill Mine Trail from Calistoga to Pope Valley in California, an old stage coach pass. Since my dad's back has been bad, I have missed doing this challenging mountain pass with him. My post birthday buzz in the morning after my birthday gave the right space to wake up in the morning decide to walk the 14 miles to the next town north, Neenah, where my car was parked. The road is rural and part of it runs along Lake Winnebago. I had enjoyed this driving very much.

A few years ago I could hardly walk a mile or two without tiring, but I was feeling it.

I left around 10am and got to my car in Neenah around 4pm. It was a beautiful experience. It was in the high 60s after days of highs of 40. I am so in love with Wisconsin's natural areas, and it was when the ground was just beginning to thaw and various forms of life were just considering returning after the long winter.

I wrote a journal and took pictures, drank the hot tea I had brought, stretched, ate food I had made, and seriously geeked out about the nature - the lake, the trees, the birds. I noticed how much a crow's wings look like eyelashes batting. I will add the notes from my walk when I find them!

Transformation

Adayashanti

When people say, ‘My heart feels like it is going to break.' Let it break. If you let it really break - really, really break, it will transform you.

- Adayashanti

I love this!

Samadhi

lying in bed at night
i felt all things
and experienced pure truth
in all situations
the room swirled into silence deep silence

a new reality came to me
all i could hear sense feel
was the sound of my breath
quiet steady breathtaking
perfect

perfect
i felt in love
the ecstacy of being so close to my soul
and stayed there

i am there now
living with this breath
my guru
my nature
my soul talking

i'm listening

May I Know Many Miracles

May I have planted the seeds for all my Miracles to Manifest.

Missing Sucks

I don't really know what I would change. But I do wish that sometimes this was easier. Sometimes it is, often it is. But when it's not its not. I enjoy it getting better, and sometimes I think it's gone, this is the end of it. Alas, it takes time, like I've been told, and like I fought. I let go now. It softly evolves, molds, shapes, turns, changes. I trust, I work through it.

Intention Setting:
I am so Grateful for love that I have known and beautiful experiences in my life. I am grateful for the sunrise and set. I am so grateful for my family. I am so grateful for my Incredible friends that have graced my life and I have gotten to know so much better lately. I am so grateful for all the fun experiences that have filled these last three months almost always when I asked. I am so grateful for the experiences that filled my last five and a half years. I am so greatful for the experiences of my life and know they are all part of a divine plan. I am grateful for god's signs that she's listening. I am grateful for my freedom to choose and accept what I wish to. I am grateful for the love that I experience all around me.

I Intend to have grace strength and gentleness. I intend to work through this period of my life productively. I intend to know love deeply all around me, and to be as open hearted as I can bear. I intend to know eternal love. I intend to be a creative force of healing, change and evolution in this world. I intend to heal quickly and wildly artistically. I intend health, vitality, vibrance, abundance, truth, true joy, inspiration, wholeness, uniqueness, grace, beauty, love. I intend to know god better, trust more. Intend to follow the light to the magnificent light temple. I intend beautiful experiences that make me cry with joy. I intend a livlihood which i live easily within my means with enough to give for causes I care about. I intend a livelihood that matches my artistic expression, best uses my inspirations and betters the world. I intend to create community. I intend to create miracles. I intend to be a good friend and know great people, age gracefully, find eternal love. I intend that everything happens with the grace of god's highest plan, and that I am always listening and acting upon her highest wishes. I intend that I always strive for excellence, innovation, and miracles. I intend to create miracles constantly. I intent to be constantly inspired and always know love. I intend to have a family, and an extended family, may it be by birthing or by having a group of people I am close to, those close and dear to me. I intend to be pure, gently, sweet, fierce, intelligent, innovative, wise, soulful, loyal, hard working, dedicated, light, inspiring, unlimited, strong.

And so it is! It is done, it is done, it is done!